Finally only one show…
Just came back from singing Tamino, by now, I do not know how many performances we already had of it. However, I am glad this week I had only this one performance. I really enjoyed tonight and my voice was fresh and I was very glad with how it went. I am also happy that friends from us came to visit from Stuttgart just to watch the performance. It is a beautiful japanese couple, both are also singers and trying to find their way in this profession in Germany.
After the last few weeks being very intense, this is week was finally more calm. I continue to rehearse Lensky in our upcoming production of Onegin. We managed to stage all my scenes, including the last scene, where I die. To stage my second aria "Kuda, Kuda" was a very nice and interesting process. The aria is a combination of sadness, nostalgy, hopfullness, poetry, love, death, life, nature. In short, it contains the romantic ideas and sentiments. The music in this aria says so much even if you do not know what I am talking about (the opera is in Russian) you understand the feelings and emotions of Lensky. It is so moving and full of heart and I really enjoy singing it very much. Every time, I try to get here and there better at interpreting it. I heard this aria for the first time I believe back in my years as student, a beautiful version with Nicolai Gedda and I just loved it. But somehow, I never found the time or energy to learn this aria, and the big obstacle for me was the fact that it is written in Russain and I had no clue about this particular language, so I guess I was a bit intimidated by it. Threfore, I am so happy I finally got the chance to learn it, not only this aria but the whole Lensky, which I find so nice, and to decipher all the colours that the music demands from the singer and actor to portray.
I continued to read the "Meditations" from Marcus Aurelious, I just finished book 12. Next to reading this book I am writing down notes on a yellow notebook that I bought last week. I am writing all what really resonates with me right now at this point in my life and that I believe I can use on my day to day life. I am so impressed how many of the concepts he mentions and ways to see life are related to the Christian and Religious life in general. Although Stoicism is a philosophy, it really has in my believe a very close relationship with god.
This week my aunty was in Mexico City visiting my mum and having a doctor appointment. I am always glad to hear that my mum gets some sister time with my aunty. They are different but similar (if that makes sense). It is always important for me to know that my mum has family company. I myslef not being in Mexico feel bad at times because I am not close to my family. Difinitely persuing my dream of being a singer, the single most difficult thing to deal with is being away from my family and friends. There has been nothing harder than that in this juorney I embarked 14 years ago, when I came to Europe to study. I managed to speak to both of them on a video call. They were waking up and both seemed very happy to be together. I know the time will come, when I can be closer to them in the general basis. I keep the hope that I will one day, close to this one, be able to visit Mexico more often. I also hope of course my father can come to us here. I want to show him how I live my life in Germany.
I love my family so much, and although we are so far away from each other, they are with me everyday in my thoughts. I feel blessed for the family I got even for those ones who are hurting and the only way they can drive through life is by hurting others. For them, I always hope that they find comfort and a way to heal themselves so that they stop hurting others.
Take care and have a nice week.
